「自性」「當下」與「無聊感」

假定我正在進行一項啫好，一段時間後感到無聊，如果我試著驅散無聊感，就是在抗拒當下的情境。但因為我想要變的更真實，即便它讓人不好受，我也選擇與自己的感受同在。當我探索這份無聊感時，我知道之所以感到無聊是因為一種空洞感，一種無意義感。我正看見這個事實，這是內在經驗的真相。雖然因為看見了內在真相而覺得更有真實感，但仍不知它如何與自性產生關聯，

Let’s say I am spending time doing a hobby I usually enjoy. After a while, I recognize that I am feeling bored. If I attempt to dispel my boredom, I will be resisting where I am. Because I want to be more real, I choose to stay with my experience even if it is unpleasant. When I explore my boredom, I realize I’m bored because I am feeling a kind of emptiness, a kind of meaninglessness. I am seeing the truth of my experience, which is the reality of my feeling boredom, which I experience as a meaningless emptiness. I see the truth and that makes me feel a little more real. But I don’t yet understand in my mind how it is related to my True Nature.

但如果我再思索一番，便能看見當下情境及內在感受與自性相連。事實上當我感到無意義時, 反應出我與自性呈現疏離的狀態。這是因為自性本身意味著價值感。如果我沒有自性，就不可能感受到無意義感．為什麼是這樣呢？無意義感暗示著，失去外在價值感的連結，然而如果我覺察無意義感本身，會發現到，它感覺像失去了自我的重要感。換言之，我內在深處似乎有個本有的智慧知道"意義"的感覺像什麼，卻暫時遺失了這份感覺。

But if I think about it a little bit, I can see that where I am and how I am feeling are connected to my True Nature. The fact that I am feeling a meaningless emptiness reflects the fact that I have a True Nature and that I am distant from it. This is because True Nature has implicit in it a sense of significance. If I had no True Nature, there would be no way to feel a meaningless emptiness. Why is that? Usually, I take meaninglessness to indicate a loss of some external source of meaning that I have been accustomed to. However, if I pay attention to the experience of meaninglessness itself, I can recognize that it actually feels like a loss of contact with my own sense of significance. In other words, I implicitly know what meaning feels like in my soul and that feeling is missing.

當我們探究當下的情境、感受內在真相，並跟著真相的線索走，真相的線頭便會引領我們看見自己真正的樣子。這是為什麼內在真相會帶來現實感。真相與現實是相關聯的，他們是一體的二面。當我們越能如實的感受當下情境，我們越能夠識別出當下情境與內在真相的關聯。這樣的辨識力拉近了當下情境與內在真相的距離，我們也能活的較真實！

So as we inquire into where we are, experience the truth, and follow the thread of truth, that thread of truth will connect us with the truth of what we are. That is why truth brings more reality. Truth and reality are related; they are two side of the same thing. The more we see the truth about where we are in the moment, the more we recognize something about the relationship between where we are and what we are. That recognition makes the distance between them shorter, and we feel more real. And that's why when we are real, we tend to see more truth of the situation; it works both ways.

From "Learning to Be Real," a chapter of "The Unfolding Now," segment titled "True Nature," ch. 2, p. 13